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I don’t know why I was born. Some days, I wish I weren’t. Do I care why? Some days, the answer is no. But I do have good days. Some days, I’m very happy from the time I wake to the time I sleep. Some days I do chores without worrying about how it will affect my health. On these days, I do so well with life and everything that comes with it. However on my off days, I can tell you that it’s tantamount to being held down by weights. Heavy weights on my chest, pinning me to whatever it is that I’m sitting or lying on.  It feels as though I should require use of my feet, or want to get up and go someplace that I have to get the weight’s approval first and the answer is almost always assuredly no. So I lie on the couch and watch television. Or I sit at my computer all day and do absolutely nothing of importance. Which makes the day long and I end up so tired at the end of it. Here’s the kicker—I cannot fall asleep at a normal time on nights like these.  Before I know what’s happening, I look up at the clock and it’s already 5 am. I cringe because I want to go to bed but my significant other has to be up in two hours and I don’t want to bother them. But it’s either that or sleep on the short couch where even my feet hang over the side, so I turn everything off and drag myself back to our cozy little room. I try to sit on the bed softly enough to not wake my lover, but I’m a bit too big for softly. The bed creaks and I have to make sure they get back to sleep as soundly as they were when I entered. I’m exhausted by this point and all I want to do is collapse. Then I lie down and… It still takes me over fifteen minutes to make my brain shut the hell up. When I do fall asleep, thankfully, I sleep hard. Then, almost as suddenly, the alarm goes off. And if there’s one thing I know about me, it’s that I get up and stay up when an alarm or phone goes off near me. So I wake up with my lover and watch them get ready for work. They leave the door open, so the older cat comes in and lays on me, kneading me. That wakes me further. They leave, and now I’m up after two hours (give or take a few minutes) of hard sleep. I stay up as long as I can, then I lie down to nap. That’s about noon. Lover’s lunch time. They come in and wake me, saying I shouldn’t be asleep this early. I stay up only long enough to watch them eat and go back to work. Go to pass out, and the roommate comes out of his room long enough to get me to agree to go swimming. As much as I love swimming, I’m already tired and this won’t help. But I go, exercise is important, and I swim. Tires me out further. We get back in and change back into our clothes. No bath needed, the pool wasn’t super chlorinated. So now I’m tired and I want to lie down again. Can’t. I have a DJ set that I’ve already flaked on a few weeks in a row for various reasons and I’d feel like horse shit if I flake again. I get through my two hours and hit a second wind. Then I get invited to a friend’s set. Another two hours, but I go and have a blast. Then I sign out of the online client and then I sit at my computer, dazed. So tired. But it’s 1 am and I feel the need to tell someone, anyone, about this crappy sleep I have going. Mainly because I just can’t sleep when I need to and we’re too broke to buy sleep aids yet. And to make matters worse, the music I’m listening to is getting more and more heavy and my back wants to get off this computer but I need to… I just want to sleep normally and I hate that I can’t. I need to sleep. I want to sleep. FUCK SLEEP.  If it wants to elude me, I’ll have to trick it. Perhaps I can touch myself? No. That won’t work. I can… No. That won’t work either.
I wish I knew how to fix it. I really do.
Painting 5-13-15 by DarkGoddessK
Painting 5-13-15
My latest work. I was jamming to music and having fun while I painted.
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Painting 5-10-15 by DarkGoddessK
Painting 5-10-15
I made this to put in a local tattoo parlor. I really hope someone likes it enough to bring home!
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Well, my birthday came and went and 31 feels good. ^^
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This is my new project. Random comic strips. XD

Hope you read and like them!
  • Mood: Pirate
  • Listening to: Self Esteem - The Offspring
  • Reading: Son of a Witch
  • Watching: Bollywood later
  • Playing: Aerena.
  • Eating: Had burgers.
  • Drinking: Pink Lemonda

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DarkGoddessK
K. Hebert
United States
I'm 30 and my brain and soul are older than that. Wanna know anything you don't already? Ask. I'm friendly enough to answer ^^

Current Residence: Kaplan, La
Favourite genre of music: Pirate songs and sea shanties. Yarr.
Favourite photographer: Peskaa, that sweetheart. ^_^
Favourite style of art: I like digital, anime, and other hand drawn types.
Operating System: Windows 7
MP3 player of choice: I have RealPlayer and though it can be bitchy, I love it.
Shell of choice: Shells? I like puka shells the bestest. They're pretty.
Wallpaper of choice: My favorite is a little Grim Reaper pointing up at your icons saying "Get rid of that junk."
Skin of choice: My own. No matter how much I mar it.
Favourite cartoon character: Gir, Gaz, All my bishies...Lupin III, Spike Spiegel...guys like that.And FOAMY!!!!
Personal Quote: "I'm not crazy, I'm just a little unwell..." - Matchbox 20
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Phantagrafie Featured By Owner Apr 16, 2015  Professional General Artist
Thanks for faving! :)
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DarkGoddessK Featured By Owner Apr 16, 2015
You are so welcome. That thing was boss!
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Phantagrafie Featured By Owner Apr 22, 2015  Professional General Artist
Aww! :hug:
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DarkGoddessK Featured By Owner Apr 23, 2015
^__^
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WyldAngel-dolls Featured By Owner Mar 28, 2015  Hobbyist Artist
Thanks for always being there even when I'm being absentee-ish. You're always in my thoughts and heart. :hug:
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DarkGoddessK Featured By Owner Mar 29, 2015
^_^ Thank you for being there for me when I need. I love you both and I really love that we know each other!
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TheBlackNova Featured By Owner Jan 29, 2015
Happy Birthday!
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DarkGoddessK Featured By Owner Feb 5, 2015
Thanks!
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TheBlackNova Featured By Owner Feb 5, 2015
anytime!
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DarkGoddessK Featured By Owner Feb 6, 2015
^_^
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